what you do
what do you do when someone you love dearly has up and gone?
it seems that jerry is still kicking about san fran.
i can only hope. from what i hear from my friends in SF, it seems to be the case. several reported sightings of him today (sat, 2 dec). god that is heartening.
the worst case scenario seems to be if he had a seizure and keeled over, or something like that, without someone around to pick him up and get him to a hospital.
best case scenario is that he is found, and gets on with his life. he is sa uch a beautiful human, i can't think of this not being the case.
so what do i do, so far away from SF?
i email all the folks in my address book. i send on their regards to my friends in SF who are helping coordinate and conduct the search... and who are doing the candle light vigil... and who i miss terribly.
and i cry because i love them all so.
and listen to music that helps me get through it. just now that happens to be led zeppelin. and the tune "ten years gone" makes me cry.
a man cannot truly figure out good and evil. they happen, they are. they duke it out. we sit by and reap the benefits.... or we deal with the shit.
when you love someone, you inevitably ache for them. they are a part of you. nothing you can do about that.
so when they up and are missing, you try to figure out how to find them. when you think you know the general (or specific?!) area they may be in, you look around there. and/or try to get as many people as possible to look around there. you brainstorm how you could find them, how you can enlist others to help.
and, i think, you pray.
praying seems to imply that something is out of one's control. well surely in this case, jerry is out of my control.
which sucks. but i have to live with it.
so i get on with it. and i am amazed at the outpouring of support and goodwill.
i've been emailing all my friends and family and coworkers, and finally broke down and sent a post to a drumcircle facilitators email list i've been lurking on for a YEAR. you know, an "off topic" post which is essentially spam. and spam is like the devil - people HATE it. (personally i despise, loathe and abhor it) .. and the moderator agreed to post my plea for help to find jerry (with the understanding that i post to the list when jerry is found). that is pure, unadulterated heart.
it seems that jerry is still kicking about san fran.
i can only hope. from what i hear from my friends in SF, it seems to be the case. several reported sightings of him today (sat, 2 dec). god that is heartening.
the worst case scenario seems to be if he had a seizure and keeled over, or something like that, without someone around to pick him up and get him to a hospital.
best case scenario is that he is found, and gets on with his life. he is sa uch a beautiful human, i can't think of this not being the case.
so what do i do, so far away from SF?
i email all the folks in my address book. i send on their regards to my friends in SF who are helping coordinate and conduct the search... and who are doing the candle light vigil... and who i miss terribly.
and i cry because i love them all so.
and listen to music that helps me get through it. just now that happens to be led zeppelin. and the tune "ten years gone" makes me cry.
a man cannot truly figure out good and evil. they happen, they are. they duke it out. we sit by and reap the benefits.... or we deal with the shit.
when you love someone, you inevitably ache for them. they are a part of you. nothing you can do about that.
so when they up and are missing, you try to figure out how to find them. when you think you know the general (or specific?!) area they may be in, you look around there. and/or try to get as many people as possible to look around there. you brainstorm how you could find them, how you can enlist others to help.
and, i think, you pray.
praying seems to imply that something is out of one's control. well surely in this case, jerry is out of my control.
which sucks. but i have to live with it.
so i get on with it. and i am amazed at the outpouring of support and goodwill.
i've been emailing all my friends and family and coworkers, and finally broke down and sent a post to a drumcircle facilitators email list i've been lurking on for a YEAR. you know, an "off topic" post which is essentially spam. and spam is like the devil - people HATE it. (personally i despise, loathe and abhor it) .. and the moderator agreed to post my plea for help to find jerry (with the understanding that i post to the list when jerry is found). that is pure, unadulterated heart.
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